And again
It's been a second... again. I have trouble keeping this going. My desires for entertainment, comfort and my own lazy complacency eat at my diligence. But of course, the intention is always there. The intention to write, to read, to study and immerse myself in His goodness is always present but what is intention without action? It's worthless.
I need to stop beating myself down. It's proven fruitless after years of hoping it would instill discipline. Turns out it just tames your inner voice to belittle your already struggling soul. So now I've got two fronts to fight. But enough on that.
COVID-19 has provided me with an opportunity to take many a moment and think. I have a lot more time lately, time to spend with family, time to unwind, and time to write. I've taken advantage of the first two, but for the past decade I've been ignoring a tug for the third. I've been given a gift to write, to turn words into poetry, my own interpretation on the art. And I enjoy it. I just never take the time to do it. I think I'm going to start again. I want to start again. So I'll start by keeping a journal and writing down my everyday thoughts. Introspection is severely lacking these days.
God, give me the strength and the perseverance to continue on this route. My wife and children depend on my leadership and without my mind set on you, I'll lead them only to destruction.
I have the motivation in a round about way, both enjoyment and a longing for my loved ones. I pray I'll keep up with it this time around.
I need to stop beating myself down. It's proven fruitless after years of hoping it would instill discipline. Turns out it just tames your inner voice to belittle your already struggling soul. So now I've got two fronts to fight. But enough on that.
COVID-19 has provided me with an opportunity to take many a moment and think. I have a lot more time lately, time to spend with family, time to unwind, and time to write. I've taken advantage of the first two, but for the past decade I've been ignoring a tug for the third. I've been given a gift to write, to turn words into poetry, my own interpretation on the art. And I enjoy it. I just never take the time to do it. I think I'm going to start again. I want to start again. So I'll start by keeping a journal and writing down my everyday thoughts. Introspection is severely lacking these days.
God, give me the strength and the perseverance to continue on this route. My wife and children depend on my leadership and without my mind set on you, I'll lead them only to destruction.
I have the motivation in a round about way, both enjoyment and a longing for my loved ones. I pray I'll keep up with it this time around.
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